the other side of me

i just wonder why
everyone seems to never give a damn about me
never care about my feelings
i understand, they have their own things too
unlike me, don't know what to do
and in the end, i just made it harder for you

i know, there's no one knows about how fragile i am
everyone thinks i'm strong enough to overcome my own problems
but no, hell no, i'm not that strong
that's the mask i've wore and the ID i've faked
so you knew me with those fakeness
think that i'm strong, but that's only what you've seen and perceived
you just never knew the impacts
of what you've done to me

don't know how many times i've shed my tears
don't know how many times i've skipped my meal
don't know how many times i've done my-own-self-destruction
i also know something, that time won't let me heal easily, because they're against me too
so, what should i do?
befriends again with loneliness?
these chains and bonds that keep me still
is haunting me with guilt
tell me, tell me what should i do
please, i beg you
i've never feel this lonely and helpless in my life
help me, please.