lost

this is almost midnight, and i'm listening to my iTunes library using the headphone. well, maybe i was born to be an overcautious person, this is my very own fate that i should bear. this can be an advantage during time of war but not in time of peace like this. i don't know, i was just thinking the whole time, "was i born into the wrong family, wrong environment?". i feel like i've been cursed by my own conscience. ideas are running in my head but i can't get them out of there, damn. i want to write my own story as i pleased. i want to travel all over the place as my feet walk. however, i lost my wit within these last few days. my logic that always be my pride is tragically lost. i don't know where it went, but i think it go somewhere beyond my unconsciousness. well, why should i bother? hahaha.

like this blog's name, means the heavy gale in the air, and so do i.