coward

how can i know you?
when i'm only befriends with loneliness?
i'm trying to befriends with everyone
but i don't know why?
these feelings that only certain people have
and understand
this loneliness that keep embracing me
as it always be

but then, i'm still trying to actualize myself
but then, still, i don't know how
i do realize that i am a coward
the biggest loser on earth
scared about anything that only a fiction
or reality also
i laugh loudly to myself
how silly i am
and i'm such a coward
i still wishing in my deepest thought
not to be a hypocrite
but we're not saints, right?
we'll still have our future sins not only present, and past

i'm still, a paradox myself, and a continuum also
which is i, myself unable to describe
still looking what i should be looking
don't know what to do
trapped
in my own pursuit
lonely, as always
and still, don't know what to do
trapped my own thoughts
which just like a labyrinth
with no way out
i'm trapped in my own thought
oh my, such a stupid